hmmm, wow, where to begin.
this year was insane. the best way i can describe it is high highs, low lows, in between in-betweens.
actually, that's not the best way. borrowing this phrase from a friend, but it's been a "paradox prayer."
here are some people shared when she offered that prompt on a zoom recently:
being together // being alone
to be alive at this time is terrifying // to be alive at this time is inspiring
this too shall pass // this will have lasting impacts
we are safe // we are vulnerable
this is a crisis // this is an opportunity
it is ok to be happy // it is ok to be sad
i am terrified // i am hopeful
i am strong // i need help
i am doing // i am still
it is time for vigilance // it is time for ease
it is too much to hold // my heart has infinite capacity
as i am separated from all i am connected to all
of course, this is the perfect prompt for this moment in time vis a vis the pandemic but upon writing this, i'm thinking it's also the perfect prompt for this moment vis a vis an end and a beginning.
this year has been high highs // low lows. this year has been lazy // productive, fun // miserable, tired // energized, absent // running late, missing // turned in, asleep // barely awake. the paradoxes abound. but i wonder too, how the similarities do. in many ways this year wasn't all that different (minus the rona) from sophomore or freshWOmen year. of course, i'm different. of course, my friends are different. of course, my ideas and desires and work are different. but when i think about the year as a whole, it isn't all that different.
i want senior year to be. that's it. that's my goal.
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