Assignment #21 - Megan Ewing - Call It What You Will

What struggle have I been through? When I see this question, I immediately think “well I haven’t really been through anything that bad, right?” But in the past few years, I’ve realized how wrong that sentiment is. My first 13 years on this earth were… something. I really don’t know how to define it and I don’t want to put the blame for this on anyone, especially when she’s changed so much. But I was bullied or abused or consistently harassed (whatever you label it, I don’t care) by my older sister for the first 13 years of my life. You might think I’m over exaggerating it, and that’s fine. I don’t need your validation. I was labeled and led to believe that I was ugly, incapable of ever having any sort of intelligence, undeserving of love and happiness, and completely worthless. Through crucial years of development. Being a child, I internalized it and am still having trouble with this. So yeah, I did go through something. I’m still going through it, trying to reverse this self-image I built throughout my childhood. But this is also what built me to be who I am. I have serious downfalls in certain areas, but I’m in the Academy in part because of this and I became a more caring, understanding, and altruistic person. Yeah, my childhood sucked. But my struggles make me who I am and I should be proud of them. (This is a mess. I’m a mess. Have a good day.)